Anne Jackson, radical thinker extraordinaire, wrote an honest, powerful post yesterday on her upcoming trip to Haiti. She said people had emailed her to say they were jealous that she’s going. While I’m not jealous, because I know that what she’ll see and feel when she’s there will be gutwrenching, I am a bit sad. Because I’ve felt the desire to do more than just send money and donate items. I want to get my hands dirty.
The tragedy in Haiti is another signal that my life is beginning to make clear the fact that some choices I made in younger years—and those I continue to make—are impeding the course I’m supposed to be charting now. But there are responsibilities—a mortgage, car payment, insurances, private school tuition—things it’s not easy to pack up and walk away from. Still, I know there’s a growing passion for a major shift in where I am now. I would have done it already, were it not for the requirement of stability my life demands.
Lately, I’ve been waiting on God to show me just how this equation is going to work out. I’ll admit, I’ve rarely been one to make radical shifts in my personal life. Ironically, it’s one of the things I love most about my job-every step in marketing has some measure of faith involved, but when it comes to my own life, I have looked for the safer ground, the “small ways” to be serve and be faithful. Those things are good and necessary because they teach us obedience and patience, but I feel something different around the corner. I don’t know what’s next, but I know it will take a leap of faith.
These days, I’m walking with purpose and listening more closely. Because my future is calling.
What about you? Where do you feel the pull to take a leap of faith?